Tuesday 16 October 2007

My Battlefield Of Love

i am in love.
that's true. but i do know someone else to loves me too whom i don't love in the same way but one i love a lot all the same. i can't do anything about that though. unfortunately. i wish the person'd find someone else. there are many fish in the sea. and i'm just like any other. i love you, you. its like a war between my mind and my heart. my battlefield of love. where nothing ever really triumphs.

because oxygen is a drug
00:40

Monday 15 October 2007

felt like blogging in red.
haha. red like the colour of my face on account of i rubbed it too much to keep myself awake.
hahaha. yes.

anyway. i've been trying to complete my homework. and i am doing it in the most lackadaisical manner. i should've been done long ago but hadn't it been for my addiction to my laptop, i would've been done at a more decent hour, not 2.08 am. i have school tomorrow. gah. and i still have some work to complete. i've finished what's due tomorrow but i have a lot due tuesday so i'm starting now to lighten to load. and i am going to regret this when i wake tomorrow wishing i could go back to sleep. pahhhh.

anyway. UN night was fun, the next day wasn't, it was boring. i skipped the test on saturday on account of i wasn't well. had a doctor's appointment. and i felt lazy. and i wasn't done studying hahaha. anyhow. went for nakul's movie thing at night. mr woodcock. shit movie. hahaha. we were s'posed to watch resident evil but since the darn lady at the counter was making such a fuss cuz we didn't have our ids, we went for woodcock instead. it was gay. stupid. waste of money (nakul's money anyway). reached home at 10 plus. facebooked and then jorden took over my laptop for his turn of facebooking and then i went to my mum's room to use the phone and i fell asleep there and i woke past noon and then hadda rush to get ready to see some houses. got back at 7. started homework at 9. haha. and i was lazing around in between. grrr. i keep promising myself i'll start a proper study routine but right now my priorities are messed and i don't even know what i want from anything anymore. lets hope these feelings pass and i get my head sorted. i need to. mocks are less than a month awayy

i can't wait till thurs.. have thurs, fri, sat, sun, mon off thanks to Global Harmony Day. =] yippee. but i'll be spending most of it studying(as if), but whatever. hahaha.

yes. yes. i am watching lizard (heroes episode 2) and once this is over, i shall turn in for the night. yes indeed. hoorah.

pfffft. my head hurts.

because oxygen is a drug
02:07

Wednesday 10 October 2007

Shmuff

for the past few days, i've been feeling like my mind is laughing at me.
i've lost a friend. sorta. anyway. i swear i could hear the voice of that guy who died. i was talking to him. i told him it was a shame he had to die and even though i didn't know him, i respected him and he said things back. maybe its the onset of brain tumour. haha. i can't even laugh about that joke anymore. it was cathy's and mine. now it's just mine. i am so dramatic. no one's gonna read this and there, my mind's laughing at me again. maybe i should just toss a coin in the fountain and wish as hard as i can cuz i'm all outta luck. i'm outta it. totally. got hit on the head by a bottle. sometimes a little internal bleeding would be nice. away from all this. my hearing needs enhancement. i am talking gibberish. this guy from thimun thinks i'm cute. haha. i am laughing at myself.. *mind joins in*.

i shall call you gabriel.

yes you. shmuck.

because oxygen is a drug
00:51

Thursday 4 October 2007

One of Them Sia Moods Again

"Sober And Unkissed"

Like a new winter's coat
I'm wearing your last embrace
Like a cold quenching glass of water
I hold a clear picture of your face

When are you coming around
Oh when are you coming around
Cos soon I'll be cold and thirsty

I'm hearing your last telephone call
Ringing louder and clearer than
The rest
I hear your invitation to see it all
Better written I am smitten no
Protest

So when are you coming around
Oh when are you coming around
Cos soon I'll be bored and lonely

I'm tasting the last glass of yor wine
The sweet taste linger left on lips
I'm tasting your sweet kisses with mine
The sweet taste lingers left on lips

So when are you coming around
Oh when are you coming around
Cos soon I'll be sober and unkissed.

because oxygen is a drug
00:32

Monday 1 October 2007

it started out as a joke,
and it still is one.. but yeah. the totally wrong kinda joke. i was just tricking for fun cuz he tricked neha. so yeah. stupid idea. now its kinda weird.
cuz now he likes me. and i am playing along. till he fully believes. then i shall burst the bubble.
i am that bored.

kill me someone.

i need sleep.

it wont come.

ah fuckit

because oxygen is a drug
22:56