Monday 19 January 2009

I am an insignificant dot fading into nothingness.

So blot me out just like you're doing now, while you still can.

Nothing I ever do seems to be enough to stop people from being cold or getting on nerves and basically altogether trying so hard to mess up my life. There is really no need. I am already messed up enough.

So to all the good times, I urge everyone, save me, to take a giant, stinky crap on all of it because I seem to be the only fucktard cheesy enough to reminisce.

And a big thanks for all the support I seem to give but never receive. I'm as significant as a receeding hairline, maybe even less so. I am not going to help anyone who can't help me. If there is some sort of problem with me, I'd like it if everything wasn't done to me in such a roundabout way and that I could be briefed first. This has truly been a week of ups and downs. And I seem to be stuck on the downs.

-Maya-

because oxygen is a drug
23:19

Monday 12 January 2009

Weekend Holiday

So I'm back from the little 3-night, 4-day weekend trip with the family to Johor and Desaru. We ended up not going to Bali in the end cos the plan was too rushed. We were all told in the morning by my father that the flight to bali was at 5pm so we decided not to rush and go at our own convenience just across the border. I did a shitload of shopping. Bought around RM 600 worth of clothes. That's aroung $300 Sing Dollars, I suppose, don't know but it's quite a bit considering the length of our vacation. We stayed at the Mutiara Hotel, which we always do in JB and shopped mainly at Holiday Plaza, not to mention some other random places around the area. Then yesterday we drove down to Desaru and spent the day at the beach. The waves were really choppy and sand got into every bit of my tankini and it was mighty uncomfortable. In addition to getting tossed about wildly by the waves and being pulled back beyond control by the undercurrent, I also cut my foot at several places on some nasty big rocks slyly located at the most random places. But, nevertheless, I had a great time. Sid and I also built a tunnel with a channel of water through it, but it was tough cos it kept collapsing and in the end i jumped right into it and sorta ruined it all over again. Anyway, it was fun and a good change from the mundanity of school-life and being-at-home-all-day days. I got some pc games and 360 games and some shoes. I actually bought a pair of those GLADIATOR SHOES (I know cringe here) and though I was totally against them till the time I tried them on, I cannot help but say that they looked good on my feet and that they are mighty comfortable. And plus they really went with the mini dress I bought and so many of my other clothes. *sigh* I am another go-with-the-flow weakling, you must be thinking. But i must remind you that my sense of fashion is very different from the norm and this is probably one of my first big fashion mistakes (if it really is one). Anyway, I'm happy. So school's started for all the local-schoolians again and now I don't have to be the only one annoyed about school reopening and everything. But now I'm used to it all over again so I don't have much to complain about, surprising eh? EXCEPT OH CRAP! I HAVE A CHEM LAB REPORT DUE TOMORROW (TECHNICALLY IT WAS DUE LAST WEEK BUT I DELAYED). CRAP CRAP CRAP.

It's these kind of terrible reminders you get once you're back from somewhere telling you..

YOUR HOLIDAY IS OVER.

xx,
Maya

because oxygen is a drug
14:04

Tuesday 6 January 2009

School

So school for me re-opened on the 5th, sucky because every other international + local schools' open on the 12th, that's one WHOLE WEEK after us. Considering we started IB Year 1 a month-and-a-half before UWC and OFS did, shouldn't we get a longer vacation? I mean, what's the rush, right? Heh. I'm one to say that. So anyway today after tiring school, we had technically NO frees, I decided to head on down to SRC to gym for at least an hour then swim to cool off, which I did. Addy came for the short swim I managed to have before my parents came around 7 on their way out of work, to get me. Then we went to start Uncle Nirad's car and finding his maid took 200 years. Tiring years, in fact (I ran up and down to the 10th floor in Katong Park Towers 3 times, practically non-stop). Tomorrow's another long day. Guess why? Mmmhmm, zero frees. Plus, our nutty chem teacher thinks it's fun to keep us waiting for over a month to get our failed chem papers back. I know I probably got a 3 so just fucken hurry up and give it! I have Bio labs tomorrow so that means I will have 2 pending lab reports to do over the weekend (not like I am going to do them after tomorrow, knowing me).. Okay I shan't rant about lab reports before I sound like a right wannabe nerd, I am merely stating. I guess I'm just going on and on cos I had such a good December break that I don't wanna go back to the usual school-routine. I'm glad the new year has seemingly inspired me to make the most of my SRC Membership card. I'm even trying to get into the Women's Rugby for SCC, not that I will get in or anything, it is just a futile attempt, but one nonetheless. I've joined Hatha Yoga every Sunday. And Bollywood dance, as hilarious as that may sound. I'm just determined to exercise for at least an hour everyday, that way I can definitely lose all the excess flab I so obviously have. Anyway, I need to work mega mega hard. I need to start studying for the UKCAT and the BMAT - I don't fucking understand why Imperial and King's have to have 2 different exams just so I can qualify when they're both equally frustrating and tough to do. Anyway, I need to study way more now. I got pretty mediocre marks last term and I need to start getting no less than a 5 for my HL's and 6's and 7's for my SL's. At least then I can get a predicted of at least 36, otherwise I'm buggered. IBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIEIBDIE!!!!!

IBDIE!

IB DIE!

I B D I E!

HL ENGLISH DIE. HL BIOLOGY DIE. HL CHEMISTRY DIE DIE DIE.
SL FRENCH DIE. SL HISTORY DIE. SL MATH DIE DIE DIE.

I feel much better already (:

xx
M Pap

because oxygen is a drug
20:57

Friday 2 January 2009

Happeh New Year!

SO... This new year's day was just about the best, ever, because I spent the whole night with Addy (Haha, sorry if I am offending anyone, I still love you Maggie, Malhu, Anna, Rans, etc). Anyway, we went to Surya's party next door and although it was too Indiany for the likes of us, it was pretty funny to watch everyone get piss drunk with all the free booze going around and all the random slamming and locking of doors (always a girl and a guy together, no duh) and fat people falling down the stairs. Addy and I escaped to the water beds most of the time so it was okay, but I guess we weren't the only ones who wanted to try them out cos of the perpetual interruptions. haha. Then he came over and we spent the night talking, etc. etc. (xP). Basically, new year's eve + new year's day were GREAT =) After such a good year together (2 years 10 months), we managed to wrap up 2008 in the best way possible, in each other's arms. (eugh I know I sound so lovesick haha)

I hope everyone's New year's was as good. And I certainly hope the rest of the year is too!

xx

Maya

because oxygen is a drug
11:53