Tuesday, 9 September 2008

Thank You Addy!

THANKS TO ADITYA, I AM NOW FINALLY COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THE BAND ''ELUVEITIE'' BECAUSE IT IS A PERFECT BLEND OF BOTH MY FAVOURITE GENRES OF MUSIC IN THE WORLD. CELTIC INSTRUMENTAL AND METAL!

You are A-Mazing. Haha. And I am determined to learn the violin bits in every song.

OF FIRE, WIND AND WISDOM - ELUVEITIE:

because oxygen is a drug
22:46

Monday, 8 September 2008

I want these!!!

IF ONLY THEY WEREN'T SO EXPENSIVE AND SO FAR AWAY IN AUSTRALIA (SHIPPING COSTS $$$!) PLUS THEY'RE PRETTY EXPENSIVE ON THEIR OWN - IF ONLY MY SCHOOL HAD A BLOODY FORMAL. I like the first one most, because it looks like a party-cum-formal dress and it's pretty and compliments my skin. The other 2 are more elegant. The last one is pretty but looks too woman-ish, but nice all the same! ANYWAY, check 'em out! (http://chicformalwear.com.au)

ORANGE COCKTAIL DRESS

PINK FORMAL DRESS

PURPLE FLOWING FORMAL DRESS

because oxygen is a drug
23:16

Sunday, 7 September 2008

I was bored - hence - The Vagina Monologues

SO, being bored as I was, I decided to surf the internet for something interesting and since I remember hearing about 'The Vagina Monologues', I decided to look it up and possibly read one of the monologues. I came across this one. An extract by a woman in Bosnia who was raped mercilessly by soldiers.

MY VAGINA WAS MY VILLAGE - EXTRACT BY EVE ENSLER:

My vagina was green, water soft pink fields, cow mooing, sun resting, sweet boyfriend touching lightly with soft piece of blonde straw.

There is something between my legs. I do not know what it is. I do not know where it is. I do not touch. Not now. Not anymore. Not since.

My vagina was chatty, can’t wait, so much, so much saying words talking, can’t quit trying, can’t quit saying, oh yes, oh yes.

Not since I dream there’s a dead animal sewn in down there with thick black fishing line. And the bad dead animal smell cannot be removed. And its throat is slit and it bleeds through all my summer dresses.

My vagina singing all girl songs, all goat bell ringing songs, all wild autumn field songs, vagina songs, vagina home songs.

Not since the soldiers put a long thick rifle inside me. So cold, the steel rod cancelling my heart. Don’t know whether they’re going to fire it or shove it through my spinning brain. Six of them, monstrous doctors with black masks shoving bottles up me too. There were sticks and the end of a broom.

My vagina swimming river water, clean spilling water over sun-baked stones, over stone clit, clit stones over and over.

Not since I heard the skin tear and made lemon screeching sounds, not since a piece of my vagina came off in my hand, a part of the lip, now one side of the lip is completely gone.

My vagina. A live wet water village. My vagina my hometown.

Not since they took turns for seven days smelling like faeces and smoked meat, they left their dirty sperm inside me. I became a river of poison and puss and all the crops died, and the fish.

My vagina a live wet water village.
They invaded it. Butchered it
And burned it down.

I do not touch now.

Do not visit.

I live some place else now.
I don’t know where that is.

Extracted from The Vagina Monologues

It is horrible really. I'd like to find the entire monologue and read it.

HELP STOP VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN PEOPLE!

WOMEN ARE THE MOST ESSENTIAL BEINGS ON THIS EARTH. NO ONE'D EVEN EXIST WITHOUT WOMEN.

SO ABUSIVE HUSBANDS, FUCKING START TREATING YOUR WIVES WITH RESPECT.
(And no, I don't give a shit if this comes across as ''FEMINIST". The world has received far too much male propaganda)

because oxygen is a drug
21:27

Rant

OKAY. This post is not going to be so much a rant as it is a factual depiction of my life and my actual feelings. This is my blog. I have rights. So I decide what I want to say and I say it. It is no different than a diary apart from the fact that people read it. I did not use the word ''SECRET" before diary so therefore I do not mind and in fact like it that other people get to read this little thingy. So basically, yesterday was my brother's farewell party. The night before, I had had my own little get together of good friends to watch 2 horror movies (Dead Silence and Alone) and have some junkfood. It was pretty fun I guess but so was yesterday. My brother's friends came and from my side, Saad, Saher, Aranya and Anna. We played random games and for forfeit, we had to chug beer or whatever alcohol we had with us. Despite the fact that I had a sorethroat, I guzzled down 2 beer cans, 1 Bacardi Breezer and 2 glasses of Rum & Coke. So basically I woke up sounding a little improvement from a Transvestite. Yeah and also, Aranya, Anna and I decided to come up with our own crappy webcast/thingy for youtube. I plan on editing the videos once they decide to import and I will upload them for your viewing pleasure/displeasure. I attempted to rap in 2 of after the other 2 gave me an impromptu topic and it was sort of disastrous but whatever. Anna was obviously tipsy. We also talked about 'Racism' in a very roundabout way (A lot of randomnity). Yeah well basically it was fun. And my parents have hardly been home these past 2 days, which made enjoying a lot easier. Today though, I decided to have my tuition despite my friends being over and I did for 2 hours and now I feel that I've at least managed to do something academic all weekend. I'm still sleepy though. Doing random quizzes in my 'Dolly' Magazine. Oh and apparently it's Vidhishaa's birthday party today, which I wasn't invited to. And which Neha probably knew but asked me anyway. Anyway, bowling plans with friends cancelled because no one is up to it today. SO yeahs. Oh. Lookatthetime! Aranya's leaving soon. GTG (HAHA when'd I start using shortforms on my blog?!).

Tata
-M Pap-

because oxygen is a drug
14:58

Wednesday, 3 September 2008

New Lyrics Blog

SO.. I've decided to segregate my lyrics from my daily-life entries because I realised people who are interested in reading them (lyrics) find it a task to navigate through the entries to look for them. So here it is!

Love

-M Pap-

because oxygen is a drug
23:19

Monday, 1 September 2008

When feeling down, consult the experts

snakes and ladders says: (10:28:28 PM)
but why cambridge i cant understand :P (on me wanting/aiming for cambridge, which is NOT my first choice - Imperial is. Well I don't know yet. I don't care)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:29:32 PM)
--Bats Jr.-- a.k.a.Feedback boy. 213. M PaP-->my favorite lyricist says: (10:28:43 PM)
so what if you didn't? (this is regarding not getting into UWC thanks to the MOE's restricting policies stating that Singaporeans who have received/were granted prior permission to study in an International school, cannot/will not be allowed to receive said permission for a second time)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:28:47 PM)
i think i might just die halfway through ib

--Bats Jr.-- a.k.a.Feedback boy. 213. M PaP-->my favorite lyricist says: (10:28:51 PM)
you're so much smarter than everyone (yeah, right. he has to say that, he's my boyfriend)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:29:05 PM)
already it's stressing me out. and i hate everyone. i'm gonna kill myself in a few months. i know i will.

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:29:13 PM)
i'm not (the smartest blah)

--Bats Jr.-- a.k.a.Feedback boy. 213. M PaP-->my favorite lyricist says: (10:29:15 PM)
and you are saving so much on school so your parents will have more money for your uni (undeniable fact)

THIS IS WHERE I CONTINUE TALKING TO SNAKES AND LADDERS (I.E NAVJOTE):

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:30:23 PM)
and i do not agree with the smarter than everyone in my class

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:30:25 PM)
it's bullshit

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:30:26 PM)
i am not

snakes and ladders says: (10:30:54 PM)
why aren't you? and anyway comparing yourself against the benchmark of your classmate isnt too good a thing to do

snakes and ladders says: (10:31:05 PM)
dont stress out now

snakes and ladders says: (10:31:19 PM)
why're you studying? is it why most ppl do, to just get a grade

snakes and ladders says: (10:31:25 PM)
or do you genuinely enjoy what you're doing

snakes and ladders says: (10:31:34 PM)
do you like reading the lit texts you've got

snakes and ladders says: (10:31:37 PM)
the history you're studying

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:31:53 PM)
i've never really asked myself that

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:07 PM)
i seem to do it just to get good grades. i like history. and bio. usually

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:10 PM)
so i do that cuz i want to

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:11 PM)
and math

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:13 PM)
cuz i wanna do well

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:23 PM)
english i don't like most of the books she's prescribed

snakes and ladders says: (10:32:23 PM)
yea

snakes and ladders says: (10:32:25 PM)
and then its fun

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:27 PM)
it's gonna be a chore

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:32:30 PM)
sometimes it's a chore

snakes and ladders says: (10:32:40 PM)
haha, doing books you dont like its a chore?

snakes and ladders says: (10:32:43 PM)
no its fun actually

snakes and ladders says: (10:32:48 PM)
pointing out how stupid they are (that is so true!)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:33:22 PM)
haha a body looks nice
Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:33:26 PM)
before you dissect it (to quote a bitch who once said it to me)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:33:31 PM)
similarly

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:33:51 PM)
a book is only so good until the point comes where you have to delve deeper than deep into it

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:34:03 PM)
even beyond the mind of the author

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:34:10 PM)
and what he might have actually been thinking

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:34:11 PM)
or not thinking at all

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:15 PM)
no no no no, i thought that too, actually its really fun!

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:34:29 PM)
i wish i had as positive an outlook as you do/did

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:29 PM)
coz if you think about it, you're making commentary about human life, human behaviour

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:33 PM)
thats really interesting

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:38 PM)
nah its simple

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:51 PM)
think about the power you have when you go through a book

snakes and ladders says: (10:34:59 PM)
you're saying this is what ppl are like

snakes and ladders says: (10:35:00 PM)
this is what they do

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:36:19 PM)
that's true

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:36:34 PM)
but i reckon it is more torturous than pleasurable

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:36:38 PM)
mostly

snakes and ladders says: (10:36:41 PM)
haha why!

snakes and ladders says: (10:36:48 PM)
if you take it at a good pace

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:36:53 PM)
i am making an assumption

snakes and ladders says: (10:36:54 PM)
discuss it, have fun criticising it

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:36:56 PM)
i am pessimistic

snakes and ladders says: (10:37:01 PM)
its more fun than you think it will be :)

snakes and ladders says: (10:37:12 PM)
you musn't be afraid to be an academic nerd

snakes and ladders says: (10:37:17 PM)
and by that i dont mean one who studies all the time

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:19 PM)
i'm not at all

snakes and ladders says: (10:37:23 PM)
i mean one who enjoys what you do

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:24 PM)
i want to go to a good university

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:32 PM)
and i want to pursue a challenging field

snakes and ladders says: (10:37:38 PM)
a real nerds one who loves his work, who relates it to everything

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:40 PM)
so i can't sit around bumming and complaining, i know that (this is where we are both talking about completely different things but what Navjote said is very agreeable to)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:45 PM)
but i am also being realistic

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:37:52 PM)
i agree totally (finally acknowledges - SORRY NAVJOTE!)

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:38:02 PM)
but you know, there is always a dark side to everything (This is the point i become too Sith-ish)

snakes and ladders says: (10:38:21 PM)
yea i know haha (its my job to be optimistic i cant tell you its gonna suck or you'll really think it does!!)

snakes and ladders says: (10:38:31 PM)
haha its gonna be hard hard work!! (No duh!)

snakes and ladders says: (10:38:38 PM)
but it doesnt need to be hell

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:38:46 PM)
haha that's true

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:38:49 PM)
i am saying

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:38:57 PM)
it is a good/bad/whatever balance of both

snakes and ladders says: (10:39:08 PM)
always is :)

snakes and ladders says: (10:39:17 PM)
good wldn't be good without bad

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:39:21 PM)
true true

THEN WE GO TOTALLY OFF-POINT:

snakes and ladders says: (10:39:49 PM)
Singapore is a multi-racial and multi-cultural country that sits in/at? the heart of Asia.

snakes and ladders says: (10:39:53 PM)
shld it be in or at

snakes and ladders says: (10:40:00 PM)
im thinking at

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:17 PM)
in

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:20 PM)
obviously

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:24 PM)
sits at?

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:30 PM)
situated

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:33 PM)
is a better word

Maya - You once revered me, exalted me...and now, you castigate me. says: (10:52:44 PM)
situated in.

Sooo let's get on with talking about my day.

IN A NOT-QUITE-NUTSHELL:

9.30 am - I wake up
11 am - A time (Not everyone needs to know)
1pm - Leave for School (I left late because I only had one test - French)
1.45 - 2.15 - I do the test and finish early. Only to later realise I had left out 18 marks and the VP didn't allow the 3 of us geniiii to do it though we had time to spare. Bastard.
3.45 - 4.45 - Dean of University of British Columbia talks to us about it (The University, obviously)
5pm - Arrive at NLB for Volunteer work and David Davidar Book-Reading
8.30 - Arrive home and head the the Optician to purchase my Monthly Contact Lens and get a new case and look at pretty perspective new spectacles with pretty flowery design on the side
9 - Dinner and TV
10.30 - IM-ing, Facebook, E-mail, Magazine
11 - Bath! FINALLY.

ALSO, I am very upset with the lack of purple-ness in my hair despite applying quite a bit of Cassis Purple Hairdye last night. I shall do it again a little more meticulously and this time I will actually use up the entire contents of the bottle(s). And with the help of someone (Anna).

AND I decided to increase the font-size after late-realisation ("finally" you must all be thinking) that my font-size is painfully small and people must be getting the idea that I'm trying to make their eyesight as bad as mine - SO SORRY ABOUT THAT!

AND FYI. I WROTE THE LYRICS OF THAT SONG/THINGAMAJIGJIG IN THE PREVIOUS POST, JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING.

XxX
M Pap

because oxygen is a drug
22:39