So much in hate with myself
I hate everything and everyone and the more I try and avoid doing things or saying things I just do them and say them and that too void of any emotion. I would commit a heinous crime like Mr. Freeman did without ever showing my remorse. Then I would mask all my emotion behind the veneer of my imagination by escaping into the realm of books. I need a Daddy Clidell who will love and understand me, even if you happen to be non-male. I hate males. All of them can burn alive. I will soon commit arson, oh yes.
Yes IOP does get to you. But so do a lot of fucking other things.
Well I'm all ready for the most miserable 18th birthday EVER!
Eddie Vedder (my one true and most faithful and lasting love) - Long NightsHave no fear
For when I'm alone
I'll be better off than I was before
I've got this light
I'll be around to grow
Who I was before
I cannot recall
Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
Ah...
I'll take this soul that's inside me now
Like a brand new friend
I'll forever know
I've got this light
And the will to show
I will always be better than before
Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
Maya